Luthien

Resist the urge to speak your name. 
Holding strong to what's been done, there's none to blame. 
Fumbling for my memory, 
This steel trap, we won't condone, provides our release. 
Should we prefer this venomous lie 
Over the convictions we want to defy? 
I've thought a lot about you, yet never more than since 
This all went down. 
Give me a reason to believe that there's much more to life 
Than this devastation. 
I'm trapped in the confines of my mind. 
I see what we ushered in. 
But for this one massive breakdown... 
Could have been, should have been, would have been. 
Should we prefer this venomous lie 
Over convictions we want to defy? 
No. I can't say no. 
I've thought a lot about you, yet never more than since 
This all went down. 
Give me a reason to believe that there's more to this life 
Than this devastation. No. No. This devastation. 
Never saw it coming, but there you were- obsessed with me. 
Only my own obsession could match your fervor. 
I'll always remember you're out there, 
Still in the same pain that I'm in. Living out a lie. 
Loving me, my Luthien. 
I've thought a lot about you, yet never more than since 
This [bad word] went down. 
Just give me one reason to believe that there's much more to this life than Luthien.