Mal'chik gei

Handsome
Tender
Soft
Why do you look right through me
thinking
"No"
I can't deny my feelings
Growing strong
I try to keep believing
dreaming on
And every time I see you
I crave more
I wanna pull you closer
closer
closer
closer
but you leave me feeling frozen

Malchik [bad word] Malchik [bad word] I can be
all you need
Won't you please
stay with me
Malchik [bad word] Malchik [bad word] Apologies, might-have-been's
Malchik [bad word] Malchik [bad word] can't erase what I feel
Malchik [bad word] Malchik [bad word] 
Choking
Back emotion
I try to keep on hoping
for a way :
a reason for us both to
come in
close
I long for you to hold me
like your boyfriend... does
and though my dream is
slowly fading
I wanna be the object
object
object
object
of your passion, but it's hopeless