How Many People Should Be Dissected?

This constant desertion makes me insane. 
Maybe you'd answer if I changed my name? 
These trembling hands. 
Our broken plans. 
My dead-end. 
When your [bad word] home they'll just hurt you again. 
Please just see how much this hurts me. 
Why are you so scared when I'm confronting? 
I find your lack of response concerning, 
Excuses unnerving, 
Due to this trend I must be deserving. 
I find your lack.....