Maybe Just Once

I can't believe that what I feel is finally happening to me.
make it hurt.
and point the finger at my insecurities.
well I guess I just don't understand about [bad word] in your mind.
and I guess I just don't understand why this world seems so unkind.

 [bad word] ]
maybe. maybe just once. I get [bad word] 
maybe. maybe just once. I get [bad word] to me.

so once again the way you feel will never ever stay the same.
and I'm to blame.
I wonder just who made [bad word] up for this game.
well I guess I just don't understand about what you want and what you need.
and I guess I just don't understand about why this is how it has to be.

 [bad word] 

you sat down on this bed and you said
"Christ, what the [bad word] do you think this place is?"
you know.
he just couldn't believe it!
and I said
"I don't know but it sure is something different"

so go ahead.
you say those thousand things you think you have to say.
look at me.
and tell me love's not such a hard word anyway.
well how can you count on me I thought you realized for sure.
and how can you just believe.
I thought I deserved a little more.

 [bad word] 

oh God.
oh [bad word] to me.