My Abyss

So this is really how it goes
When you believe in something so much that it hurts
It was my solemn oath
To achieve the near impossible and I paid the toll

Perdition was never too far off
Close the top
The ideals that had carried me so far
Would not be stopped

Higher than the height of all reason
I couldn't let go off the notion
That one day I'd reach it
If I kept believing...

It was a one way track
I made the choice of never looking back a dead end path
My undeniable [bad word] 
That could never be disproved such an earnest fool

Perdition was never too far off
Close to the top
The ideals that had carried me so far
Would not be stopped

(But at the end of the tunnel)
I saw a light that wasn't guiding, I was blind
(It was the bottom of the well)
I was so caught up in my own reflection
(And into my abyss I fell)
I got just what I wanted all along

And in the course of my descent,
I discovered weightlessness
It became evident as I neared oblivion
That I had one of two options
Most fall feet first like cowards
But I dove headlong into beyond

Higher than the height of all reason
I couldn't let go off the notion
That one day I'd reach it
If I kept believing...

(But at the end of the tunnel)
I saw a light that wasn't guiding, I was blind
(It was the bottom of the well)
I was so caught up in my own reflection
(And into my abyss I fell)
I got just what I wanted all along

I'd reached the apex of hope's spires
The furthest point from non-belief
The altitude was perilous
And temptation surmounted gravity, and now I'm gone...