Internal Evidence

This could've been a good day
to enjoy how life can be
But instead I wake up in myself
look down ashamed to understand
what we ignore insanity
We wait for the problems
to solve themselves

What the [bad word] happens here...
NOTHING
Slovenry...
 [bad word] SAVAGERY
REACT
We're slowly drowning in our own mistakes...
DEEPER
Drowning...
BREATHING UNDERWATER-DEATH
HELP...
I wish I felt much better
Feels like I'm dying inside
By murdering this world
we'll [bad word] ..SUICIDE
Search my mind for reasons
to this uncured depression
This void of emptyness prevails

What the [bad word] happens here
NOTHING
Slovenry...
 [bad word] SAVAGERY
REACT
We're slowly drowning in our own mistakes...
DEEPER
Drowning...
BREATHING UNDERWATER-DEATH
HELP...

WILL SOMEONE HELP ME
You know it yourself, nobody gives a [bad word] 
WHY
Because our dreams are left behind
WAKE

Numbed PAIN, I'm NULL, feeling ILL...Internally
 [bad word] GONE, lies HERE, [bad word] LIFE...Don't interfere
I'm TRAPPED, Wiped OUT, I'm DEAD...Eternally
Mind CLOSED, Torn SOUL, Life ENDS...I'm dying here...

What am I doing here on this earth. Why am I still awake, has
someone heard. What brought me here to this false humanity,
Why am I bound to this deranged deformity?

I'M DYING HERE