Loner [Prod. JI Beats]

Lyrics:

(Hook)
I cannot give in to all of this, I know I'll [bad word] all of the [bad word]  You should not give in to all of this, I know you'll [bad word] all of the [bad word] 

(Torchfvce)
Family ain't [bad word] to me friends don't mean [bad word] to me
All you abandoned me walk in my life and leave
Abandoned the heavens cause there was no light to see
Darkness surrounding me clouding my energy
Living anxiety depression depriving me
I'm like a burning tree cannot survive the heat
Sucking me dry like this life is a [bad word] leach
quick to help others but don't have no time for me
What will it take to correct my mistakes
Why am I living I can't find my place
I'm trying I'm trying by burning my sage
Is it worth livin or is this my fate?
Is it worth trying or is this my [bad word] fate?
No use in trying, it's way to [bad word] [bad word] late..
Something from nothing no dad to be helpin
He died way too young and I still cannot function
My Mom can't stay sober now her life is over
Dependent on no one so now I'm a loner
I'm sick of these panic attacks
I'm sick of the life that I lack
I wish [bad word] take it all back
I wish I could take it all back.. yeah..

(Bearded Legend)
Life as a loner as I'm getting older is making me scared like the end of October. Been misunderstood and I wish that I could just sit back and relax cuz I want to feel good. I am so [bad word] tired, I've always admired the type of us people who chase their desires, their dreams and their wishes, defying the physics, I'm trying to be happy while minding my business. This all is a game, we are the same, [bad word]  she's calling my name. Don't even know how I control all of my feelings, it's taking a toll. I'ma find my way, try to stay calm, you can see it on my face, try to be strong as I'm hiding the pain, gonna start fresh, the depression will break, yeah.