Moments Of Repentance

I realize that I was wrong,
She probably thinks that I am
The worst fellow in the World.
Is there anyone who can hear my scream?
Is there anyone who can help me?
I can describe the way I feel now
It feels like hell, believe me
It happened again and this time I can't
Forgive myself, this is my payback 
You are so easy to Love, don't don't go away
Let me know what can make you stay 
I am drinking again
I am wasting myself
This time I can't change anything
Any [bad word] thing!
Will I ever learn?
Should I let myself burn?
Is this what I really deserve?

I swear that I could change if only I saw clearly
I can't escape this time, the clouds above are calling
I've heard them calling me
And I know I can't,
I can't live like this

Yeah you've all looked down on me for the last time and I
know I've failed in the eyes of god
But because I've fallen, and because I'm lost
It's only made me stronger and I'll prove it to you all

You are the worst in me, and I am so dead in you
I know where I stand, and through the darkness my fires will burn

I see the light through all of this
You are not alone! 

There's more to life than meets the eye,
You can choose to hide, or grow and thrive.