Tears On Hold

tears on hold
that's what it feels [bad word] home
thought i had to go away to get the gold, never thought i could find it here at home

the disease is traveling through my bones, but soon i'll be healing where i was born
where everything is far and you need your car, but where it is fine to be who you are

it's something but not [bad word] to ... (x5) 

so instead of going some place i don't belong, i'll stay at the same place i get along
i [bad word] you to places that i go
and if i leave you, it's for the joy [bad word] home (x2)