Second Skin

I've thought about it [bad word] about a million times 
It takes all my strength just to keep it calm 
I have to tell myself it's there just to breathe 
Holding it inside will only help to do me in 

Each time I close my eyes I see another chain 
It's one I can't forget something I cannot break out of 
I need a second skin something to hold me up 
Can't seem to get out of this hole I've dug myself right back in 

Just to wake up tells me [bad word] I must be brave 
It hits me like a [bad word] shot into my vein 
But it's not as delightful delightful of a pain 
Immobilizing me almost makes me think I'm dead 

I need a second skin something to hold me tough 
Can't do it on my own sometimes I need just a little more help 
I've got that chance to give every drop that's left in me 
I need a second skin something I cannot break out of 

I just tell myself girl just let it breathe 
It's a calmness I'm always searching for 
But the dirt it gets so heavy 
It falls above my head seeping from under my feet 
It just keeps on getting deeper 

I need a second skin something to hold me up 
Can't do it on my own sometimes I need just a little more help 
I've got that chance to give every drop that's left in me 
I need a second skin something I cannot break free of 

Though no one ever said it'd be easy still one's left to deny 
The choice [bad word] between your willingness to survive 
Though you're knowing what you stand up against 
world set to deceive you need a special strength 

I've got that second skin I've got that chance to give 
I've got the only way that I know how to live with it 
I need a second skin something to hold me tough 
I need a second skin something I cannot break out of