When It Isn't Like It Should Be

Why is it everything's all loneliness with me? I guess sometimes I try
to hard, and sometimes you cause it, but it always carries on and on. What
did you ever become? you asked. I said, I was told to be smiles and bright
eyed happiness, but sometimes I can't find anything to laugh at. I don't
want to be here. you said. It seems like I almost always have that effect
on everyone. I say to myself, You aren't the first one to think like me.
And I just want to be like everyone else. Why can't I be everything to
everyone else, or maybe just to you? Just once I would like to be something.
And I wouldn't mind if you'd like to be with me.