Side Effects

It's M.C. and Y.J. another hit, okay
We lookin' fine, takin' off, saw us on a runway
On any given Sunday, Monday, Tuesday
They try to confuse me, I never let 'em use meI was a girl, you was a man
I was too young to understand
I was naive, I just believed
Everythin' that you told meSaid you were strong, protectin' me
Then I found out that you were weak
Keepin' me there under your thumb
'Cause you were scared that I'd becomeMuch more than you could handle
Shinin' like a chandelier that decorated
Every room inside the private hell we built
And I dealt with it like a kid I wished I could fly awayBut instead, I kept my tears inside
'Cause I knew if I started I'd keep cryin' for the rest of my life
With you I finally built up the strength to walk away
Don't regret it but I still live with the side effectsWakin' up scared some nights still dreamin' 'bout them violent times
Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside
Still a little defensive thinkin' folks be tryin' to run my life
Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects
Side effects, side effects, side effectsVacant inside, no one was there
Couldn't be real, had to keep quiet
Once in a while put up a fight
It's just too much night after nightAfter a while I would just lie
You wasn't wrong, said you was right
Did what I could just to survive
Couldn't believe this was my lifeFlickerin' like a candle, doin' my best to handle
Sleepin' with the enemy, aware that he was smotherin'
Every last part of me so I broke away
And finally found the strength to breatheI kept my tears inside
'Cause I knew if I started I'd keep cryin' for the rest of my life
With you I finally built up the strength to walk away
Don't regret it but I still live with the side effectsWakin' up scared some nights still dreamin' 'bout them violent times
Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside
Still a little defensive thinkin' folks be tryin' to run my life
Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects
Side effects, side effects, side effectsHey, hey, hey, let's go
Hey magnifico or should I say magnificent?
Ain't nothin' worth your happiness
And I ain't carin' who you're withMisery love company
So we ain't tryin' to hang with y'all
Hurt you if ya let 'em in
Gotta keep ya sucka smilin'Keep tryin' to play 'pology
I tell him I ain't bowlin' tho
Think they want me outta here
I tell 'em I ain't goin' thoSide effects be drowsiness
Loneliness, how is this?
I think they call it hateration
What can you prescribe for this?Forgive but I can't forget
Every day I deal with this
I live with the side effects
But I ain't gonna let them get the best of meForgive but I can't forget
Every day I deal with this
I live with the side effects
But I ain't gonna let them get the best of meI kept my tears inside 'cause I knew
If I started I'd keep cryin' for the rest of my life
With you I finally built up the strength to walk away
Don't regret it but I still live with the side effectsWakin' up scared some nights still dreamin' 'bout them violent times
Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside
Still a little defensive thinkin' folks be tryin' to run my life
Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects
Side effects, side effects, side effects